[ solo says he works better alone and that has generally been true-- but the truth is also that he is a hedonist and greedy with it, that there's really no joy in being clever when there's no one to observe it, less joy in decadence when he cannot enjoy it with someone else (or rub their nose in it).
the truth is that he's a social creature. deep down, perhaps, but he is. he's a social creature and that explains more about texting illya than their partnership does. (no, that is not true: he won't admit to it, not even in the privacy of his own head, but the times when he didn't care about illya are gone. have been gone since he made the choice not to drive off in a stolen truck.
he wishes, sometimes, that he were as callous and heartless and autonomous as he may claim to be. it would be easier, wouldn't it?) ]
How fortunate that the doors here are so intelligent.
[ illya pours and solo narrows his eyes, reaching for the glass but stopping before his fingers can connect. he's not sure he wants to know whether he's solid enough to hold it. he's not sure he wants the misery and humiliation of the glass shattering on the floor or the liquor over his suit. ]
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Date: 2021-04-03 05:42 pm (UTC)the truth is that he's a social creature. deep down, perhaps, but he is. he's a social creature and that explains more about texting illya than their partnership does. (no, that is not true: he won't admit to it, not even in the privacy of his own head, but the times when he didn't care about illya are gone. have been gone since he made the choice not to drive off in a stolen truck.
he wishes, sometimes, that he were as callous and heartless and autonomous as he may claim to be. it would be easier, wouldn't it?) ]
How fortunate that the doors here are so intelligent.
[ illya pours and solo narrows his eyes, reaching for the glass but stopping before his fingers can connect. he's not sure he wants to know whether he's solid enough to hold it. he's not sure he wants the misery and humiliation of the glass shattering on the floor or the liquor over his suit. ]